...my best to keep myself from pouring out my sad heart via the blog world but right now I feel it's my best outlet. I'm freaking out over a huge financial problem that lingers and won't go away. I'm in limbo with my new job wondering if it will even start and wondering when I'll have to find another one that will pay enough to replace the pay I made with daycare. I've been going to the gym for 6 months now and can't seem to control my pathetic need to overeat so I can lose the ten pounds I want to rid myself of. The laundry piles, the dishes pile, the tantrums increase, the homework, reading, Cole's school, Kayley's school, being a wife, being a mom. I'm just spread so thin that I cannot stand it. I'm sad that there is a problem with the house at Big Bear so instead of staying there we have the apartment that's connected to the garage for our anniversary. I'm thankful that it's free but I wish that things wouldn't change at the last minute. And I really wish my friends lived closer.
Thank you Jesus because you're the one thing in my life that always remains the same yesterday, today and forever. And right now the only way I can actually convey that to you is through this blog and my tears.
